There's been days as of late, where I've ripped through a whole pack of smokes, which is disgusting on so many levels. I've noticed a slightly larger growth on the inside part of my thigh, which could be some sort of cancer. If only cigarettes would do what they advertised a lot quicker. Circumstance has been killing me these past 4 years, and I've given up on trying to change them for the time being, simply because my soul is in ruins. Hope to sleep.