Friday, June 15, 2007

Chewy, I know you like the light, but not for tonight....

Lock: I know it's a thin line, a fine thread, but the thread I think I have a good probability of following it to the next 'T'.
Chewy: but you blew out in trading today?
Lock: Chewseph, you are wiser than me, your species has been around since the beginning of amoebas... trust me...
Chewy: fine, no sunlight for me today, but for you, I wish you the best... a nice yellow brick road, Lock.

Friday RagexTen

SKYPE CHAT:

(3:13.56PM)Lock: are the listed traders having problems with SDOT?
(3:14.23PM)DomCap: no, but the HON specialist contacted us at lunch, and said for you to get what you want done, because you're fucking with his order flow.

(3:16.54PM)Lock: Fuck that. I'm giving him good outs with my stops, and if he's too pussy to hit them, then that's not my fault, what is he a new?
(3:17.05PM)DomCap: I think he is for Friday.
(3:17.43PM)Lock: I can't seem to place bids/asks through SDOT, and can only place market orders with it. it has already clusterfucked' me today. with RTN and HON, not much gets done on Arca.
(3:18.23PM)DomCap: then cut your size in half, there's only 45 min left
(3:18.42PM)Lock: absolutely retarded, I'm going to take the 3 train down to the NYSE and slap the guy in the face. SLAP!
(3:19.13PM)Mariobros: Lock, I'll come along with you, ruffriders roll...

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Endgame... For the most part, it's mostly my fault...


With that said... I visited NYU, Columbia, etc, the top business schools in the world... and I saw so many black, asian, white people with superior credentials attending... and I knew then, and actually chuckled to myself... I told myself, 'Now you know, son.' Because I've always been my own father and child to myself. The comeuppance is when even when you are using the 'manic' phase of bipolar to your advantage(studying my ass off and networking like crazy), you realize, you're totally expendable. There are so many asians that are just as good and better. Maybe I'm just like my father, two fold...
Well, I've suffered from the occasionaly bouts of 'hypoxia' while sleeping this past month or two, waking up completely dissociative and in panic, so my CNS is not in the best shape, but if I continue, I'm sure I passed my CFAI, and can take CFAII in July 2008... but first things first, GMATS on July 9th. I'm sure I'll get an 800. It's a cakewalk, and I'm a master at probabilities on the multiple choice sections...
Aside from this, I NEED TO BE ALONE... Chained to my fate... Big fucking deal... You think I fucking care at this point? These things happen exponentially when it approaches the end of the chapter... a simple literary technique....

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Funny email I got: Dear lockheedmarketmaker, We appreciate your financial support of GunBroker.com! This email is asummary of your prior calendar month's account activity. For full details you must view your statement available online as per the instructions below. They owe me: $1.00

Somedays, You Just Can't Be a Contrarian...

Short [HON] 7000 shrs and large green circle.... covered at the little green circle... as you can see there was more to it, but at least I locked in my rent for the month of July... It's difficult to balance post CFA studying for the GMATs while trading a supremely volatile equity/bond market during the day, when every penny counts these days for me... If I had a prescription for Ritalin or Adderol, it would be much clearer to me. 'Does it make you wanna scream? Have you ever liked a bad dream?'
SKYPE CHAT:
[3:16:21 PM] domcapital says: darnell and kman chopped up that aapl today. see you are on the call

[3:22:29 PM] Lock says: Day like today, it's cleaner to trade lower volatility stocks[3:22:41 PM] Lock says: better sharpe ratio. LOL.
[3:23:03 PM] mariobros says: Fuck that sharpe shit, i wouldn't touch AAPL with a ten foot pole on a day like today, the shit be AIDs ridden.
[3:23:10]Lock says: Ha. The whole market is HIV positive... (full blown HIVS)
[3:23:54 PM] domcapital says: mr darnell might not agree- he is up 10k, but aapl is a very hard stock, not one to trade unless it is in play
[3:24:13 PM] Lock says: 10k gross, but tickets must be a killer
[3:25:00 PM] domcapital says: gross, you dont mind the txs at that gross
[3:25:12 PM] Lock says: true[3:32:03 PM] Lock says: No cute picture of your face for me, darling?
[3:34:29 PM] domcapital says: you can always check the website
[3:35:57 PM] Lock says: yeah, I heard that website gets more hits from chicks than traders...[3:37:27 PM] domcapital says: we are gonna be on tv soon: wall street warriors on a hd channel should be fun
[3:38:12 PM] Lock says: if you're being serious, email me the details of what channel, date, etc...
[3:38:36 PM] domcapital says: next jan. we are shooting now till sept
[3:41:54 PM] Lock says: possible last wave of sellers
[3:41:59 PM] Lock says: pukers really
[3:47:29 PM] Lock says: Hold me to this statement: the levee's gonna break on close... 'and then we're going down...going down now...'

Sunday, June 03, 2007

I've Always Been a Six Gun Lover... since I was 1....Fucking Precocious and Obnoxious as all Shit...


Lord, I never drew first...

But I drew first blood...

I'm no one's son...

Call me young gun....

You ask about my consience...

And I offer you my soul....

You ask if I'll grow to be a wise man...

Well I ask if I'll grow old...

I'm going down, down, in a Blaze of Glory...

Take me now, but know the truth...

Sacrosanct


....something different... all the girls seem to like you... cause your handsome, like to talk and a whole lot of fun.... I'll get her jacked up on some cheap cocaine...

What A Field Day for the Heat...

My sleep schedule is ultrafucked now. Thanatos won't come for me. I would be presumptuous if I said he was making an effort to stay away from me. But Thanatos doesn't bother with the mediocre. Somehow, I lost 40 bucks. I went to the atm and must've forgot to put the money in my wallet, because there's no way I got mugged or pickpocketed, unless there was somebody with mad skills... I mean, seriously, I even deducted with a pen and paper the 40 bucks from my checking account, and it just straight vanished. I'm completely boggled by it.

'And now you know'... is what I penultimately told myself today. I won't and I can't elaborate on the awfulness of my day/night/dusk/dawn, because it would render me a corpse.