Friday, April 29, 2005

The Dog Has Not Been Fed In Years...


...Crude oil closes definitively below $50, DJIA puts together small rally, inflation adjusted, personal spending rose a mere .1%, net for net, nothing was accomplished this week ahead of next week's FOMC meeting... We'll have to wait and see if Nortel is making a double bottom around the 2.45 area... When I begin routinely posting images such as the bleak sunset along the barren Jersey coastline, I know that I simply have no serotonin left in my synaptic gaps... might catch a heavyweight fight at Madison Square Garden... haven't done so in a long time... trying desperately to grasp final vestiges of small magic... Posted by Hello

Thursday, April 28, 2005

You Know I Took Some Lumps When the Mighty K Struck Out...


So we took the B train up to the Bronx Bomber's Stadium... It was a terse game with no volatility... just quick outs, and one error that let the Angels round 3rd three times with the Yanks scoring one... There wasn't much of a crowd, yet the prices were skyrocketing ridiculous for beverages and snacks... No, it's not welcome to Coney Island... I meant, signs of serious stagflation... Shrinking economy combined with rising prices... One hotdog: $5 One beer $9 and so on... Spending the day at a ballgame with the family while sweating bankruptcy and knowing that you are damaged goods and no longer economically viable: yeah, priceless... Posted by Hello

It's One, Two, Three Strikes You're Out...


My only solace is a pleasant dream of escapism... Posted by Hello

I Fumbled Towards the Endzone Because I Was Scared of the Godamned Kicker...


...I'm officially existing on borrowed time... Today could have been the day that I got some hope in my rope... but NOOOoooo... After the disgustingly pathetic shitfest of advanced GDP numbers a 3.1% crawl, Nortel actually had a 20 cent range, which is almost unheard of, pretty much straight down... Of course, it's a battle to get short do to the faggotry of exchange rules, and I simply didn't step up... I baffled my short positions, exiting way too early, seeing my final reminents of potential sludge down the sewer... where I will live my final hours... Supposed to take the kids to a Yankees game tonight...it's supposed to be a magical time, with mum treating us to one frankfurter each... of course my brain is fried and crying for at least 1mg of Ativan... Posted by Hello

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Must Be Getting Early...Clocks Are Running Late...


...After netting a whopping $9.23 after churning over a million shares scalping Gaytel Networks(NT) on a most uneventful day, and because Mum is out for the night, I decided to treat the kids to Ice Cream Sandwiches and fucking Yodels... You should see the smiles on their little faces... I might rent a movie about dragons or robots... even though I might let the kids rent a PG-13 to rated R movie... I even stood outside of the Game Workshop between 72nd and 73rd and Amsterdam, a place where they still play the physical role playing sci-fi/fantasy games instead of the intricate and vastly playable RPG games online these days. Purists in nature, they spend hours painting the figurines before rolling the dice... I just dripped alot of melted neopolitan ice cream all over the desk... I just used my palm and fingers as a napkin to wipe it up because I'm too much of a fucking miserable fucking die fuck scum waste of shit flies miser to spare a paper cunt towel... Posted by Hello

Our Camera Can Photograph Ghosts...


Apparently, Mum took a photo of a ghost in this picture on 1st Avenue and 14th Street... So after working up a sweat on the exercise bike to filter out some of the rotten disease in my brain and body, I heard the nostalgic crackle of an impending spring thunderstorm...yeah, at least is was warm enought to rain... The Gay Jones Industrial Average did little of anything today in the face of a 2.8% plummet in March Durable Goods Orders, and a sizable drop in Crude Oil on the heels of the API report of solid domestic supply... of course anything above 50 is still way too high for the economy's liking... Lightening blasts by my window as I type, raindrops pelting the air conditioner in staccato rhythms void of a metronome sitting in an old suburban house practicing Chopin on the piano... Posted by Hello

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Running Scared...Consumer Confidence Paltry...


Consumer Confidence dumps to 97 with the expectation index at 2 year lows... Clearly the record month in New Home Sales are being treated as an anomaly if not a fearful bubble taking a backseat to sentiment reflected in the DJIA closing down 91 points. Some aquisition news from Nortel instilling volatility, chopping my churning face up, stomach gutteral, a 7 out of 10 on the Despondence Scale... the kids smiling, not realizing that their social security benefits are being chopped up and churned by the greatest generation, although Hay did ask to attend the rally at Capitol Hill which is about a 6 hour Peter Pan bus ride south... Posted by Hello

Monday, April 25, 2005

Can DJIA Make It Three Days Up?


Approaching the bewitching hour as I type this... I captured some spirits in this photo hovering over the cabs at light speed... tomorrow(which is in about 6 minutes), we have Consumer Confidence and New Home Sales numbers... which will paint a better picture of whether the markets should be rallying as of late... Curious, Hay, and Mum just watched a documentary on professional Scrabble players... and the kids are now making lists of palendromes on yellow post it notes made by 3M and slapping them on the refrigerator near the bottom because they are both well under 2 feet tall... Posted by Hello

Slow Day... Adelphia's Day In Court...


I am now test driving a new equities platform away from the dualism of success and failure on that deadly and yet rebirthful street known as Wall...the water is boiling right now and I have to place the ravioli's within the cauldron... When trading a thick and slow vehicle, one at times needs alert sounds to notify a fill... for now, all I could find from my harddrive is a soundbyte of Godzilla screaming...Posted by Hello

Friday, April 22, 2005

Dead Cats Keep Bouncing On My Head...


It's Friday and Mum wants me to scrub the tub with bleach until it's a fine enough piece to be put into a legititmate antiques shop, not a gaudy one... The Dow parries half of yesterday's gains on poor earnings out of the consumer sector, and, a rumor going around the pits that North Korean will be undergoing NUCLEAR testing. OOOoooohhh.... Spooky... Posted by Hello

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Huh, Even Philly Fed Was Good...Sorta...


Riggormortis Dead Cat Bounce? Maybe... But the Dow rallied over 200 points on solid earnings, the optimism for all indices being topped off by Google's GOOG blowout earnings after market, on 1Q revenue of 1.26 billion, sending shares up another 6% after the bell back above 200(a 140% gain since August 2004)... Keep an eye on this bitch tomorrow at 930am est... Philly Fed even came in way above estimates, although costs rose significantly... of course the regional manufacturing surveys are notoriously volatile and only good for the bond market... I've always been a bit bearish on Google soley for the technicals which had cried overbought for months now, even though this blog itself utilizes the advertising thereof and I seem to check the google search engine everyday for topics such as depression, bipolar, paddle tennis, acute anxiety, ocd... although the news page certainly hasn't caught on... but of course the FBD oscillator then kicks into a higher spectrum after lingering far too long above 70 relative strength without a pullback... So the warmer weather when sitting by the hudson towards sunset and a little past sunset reveals red lights along the Jersey side near Hoboken I believe, and the currents the remind me of Bar Harbor, Maine... and I crave stuffed clams...Posted by Hello

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

CPI Core, the Beast Hath Risen...


PPI sure didn't give a heads up to today's CPI, with the core rate(ex food and energy prices) rose .4%, double the estimates... shades of stagflation... The Dow almost pierced the 10,000 mark, trading as low as 10,000.42... as crude oil regained strength... In other breaking news, the New York Stock Exchange will be merging with ARCA and its gaylord fees, which I have mixed feelings about, but seems to make business sense... I also played paddleball in Stuyvesant Village which seems poised to become a new pastime being a cross between the chopping strokes of ping pong and the breadth and physical exertion of tennis...the boats are slowly coming back to the Hudson upper westside in this photo... it approaches midnight and I have blisters on my feet and will have to let the monsters mash out of the closet and frighten the kids and mum... Posted by Hello

Monday, April 18, 2005

Hudson Endgame... 3M Beats on Lower Sales...


Oil holds above 50, Dow meanders closer to the four digit level, 3M's sales drag as the collective unconscious waits for tomorrow's PPI figures expecting an increase of .6%... If the number is mild and the indices still fail to bounce, I'll be strong arm robbing the can collectors along the upper west side. Before the bell(meaning while I'm dead asleep, the diphenhydramine I take at midnight really kicks in a latent effect around 700am) giants Coca-Cola, Viacom, and J&J report earnings... Other than that, as it approaches the bewitching hour where I toil in recognition of my failures, I leave you with the Hudson sunset, taken Sunday the 17th 2005 c.e, when Mum and I took a nostalgic walk, while the kids went to the petting zoo at Central Park. Posted by Hello

Friday, April 15, 2005

A Four Digit Dow Jones Again? What Are We? Living in the Present?


From this photo in Soho, you wouldn't know it, but as I said in the previous post, U-Michigan Consumer Sentiment would be well below estimates... it was, as were the industrial production numbers and the Empire Manufacturing survey... jobs were cut again... the Dow collapsed 200 points even as crude oil remained defensive in a pullback around 50, even with strong earnings from bellweathers GM and Citigroup. Big Blue I-Beam as we know it, posted shockingly lower earnings exposing the imminent slowdown in technology spending... I must trade so aggressively against the downside, I will hit ARCA and pay the fee just to guarantee I'm short... Posted by Hello

Thursday, April 14, 2005

A Walk Around the Block... DJIA Plummets to Year Lows...


The Dow ended down at 10,280 well over 100 points today, clearly establishing resistance at 10,500 albeit Crude Oil printing below 50 with clearly reasonable supply... It's both fundamental and perception these days... I'd like to be right when I say that U-Michigan Sentiment will be below estimates tomorrow, but the core of me wants to be wrong... When I'm reduced to procuring my napkin supply from Krispy Kreme and Gray's Papaya, I know the economy is in a possible double dip recession... I also know there is a fair probability of a double dip depression for me, as I've once again found myself randomly taking shots of Jack Daniels after a day of trading in an old hub that is reminiscent of the hell days post 9/11... There's this dick I keep seeing from my euroshift days from the other piker faggot firm that I was at walking up Wall St during lunch hours, and he gives me this awkward look and I'm like, dude, what's up, and he's like yeah, I know I'm a fucking queer... Mum will be home soon, and I must paint a 'happy' face... Posted by Hello

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Capital Outflows to Exodus... I am done now...


...Since I last spoke of the euro, it was at its peak of 1.3660 in early January... it's since settled...consolidating in 1.29-1.30 range... it's waiting... oh it's simply waiting... spring is here but it's just a subterfuge... for the burgeoning twin deficits of the u.s. economy, on pace for a 700 billion trade deficit, knocking and will soon be barrelling down the door, coupled with the phantom job market creation, where I applied for over 1000 positions and got no response, this dead cat bounce of job creation, merely the last rattles of a dying man before final riggermortis and stalemate ensue... and then, the euro will shoot through 1.40... and the outflows of capital from the U.S. will become an exodus... from here on, I will always be biased towards short selling every u.s. corporation...until I die... Posted by Hello

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Weekly Calendar... Maybe Some Action... Not That I Care A Damn...

Decent data week with trade balance figures, U Michigan Sentiment, Industrial Production, Retail Sales and some heavyhitters on earnings from General Electric, Citigroup, as well Apple and Sun Micro... time to settle some thoughts before smashing and throwing bags of gnats and sprinkles at the goblin in pajamas, a sunday night ritual...

Cycles of Hudson Riverside...


We spent the afternoon strolling through Riverside Park along the Hudson River, hints of neurontin days of severe phobia... but it was a calm and soft sun and we even treated ourselves to Mister Softee ice cream, mom and hay vanilla, curious and me, sprinkles and vanilla... blankets of spring dafodils created a subterfuge to the direness of my final quest... Posted by Hello

Friday, April 08, 2005

I'm the Hairy Headed Gent Who Ran Amuck In Kent...


...donning her bhurka again, deep in bisque concentration is Hay, tiny but focused on the risk of mortgage prepayments and rising standard of living that will negate the cost savings of outsourcing... despite the significant pullback in crude oil, the Dow dropped a solid 80 points once again closing below the now psychological resistance of 10500... Initial Claims dropped well below expectations on Thursday, but as I always say, 'of course that is because there is nobody left to fire...' I did make a good fade on NT of 10,000 shares after the half-ass rally at the open buffering my rotten PnL for the month... we plan to take the rest of the night easy after I came home disheveled from the most mediocre late afternoon interview, with hot sake and red faced gentleman jack's whiskey breath ... I realized that there were 6 month old coffee grinds with fungi in the dull silver coffee pot from the days of the overnight euro sterling shitfest in the dead of NYC winter when this whole charade started, emulating my neurally fried circuitry... it's winding down now, and I treat myself to Last Suppers... we will bake cookies for Mum and have milk ready as she returns from London on the red-eye... When I have a flurry of posts on this blog such as this week, which are usually filled with dark boiling pots of anger, I know that I'm going back into a hellish rot cycle which only subsides in a melancholy tombstone in my eyes manner... Posted by Hello

Lion of Self-Doubt...


I used to have the fine combination of being jovial, energetic, and filled with intellectual firepower and the ability to lay on the verbal diarrhea at interviews back in my heydays... I don't know what happened to my neural circuitry but I seem to shut down completely now, reduced to shaking my head up and down... It struck me today in my first and clearly last interview with an investment banking giant in midtown, where I was completely unprepared... "Yes, the rate of return in emerging markets are only beginning to... um...china...um...right..." Silence. "Well, yes the volume in mortgage backed securities has skyrocketed in...um... yes I'm diligent...um...creative? I don't know..." Silence. "One that fosters and rewards insight and initiative...I think that...uh..." Sadness. So the moral of the story is, I'm going to have to due some seriously hardcore trading this month to make something out of nothing or Hay and Curious will have to eat not even the malnutritious Chef Boy Ar Dee but a generic even more msg filled headache substitute.Posted by Hello

Thursday, April 07, 2005

White Collar to Blue Collar to Chain Collar...


That's it... I got the JOB!!!! I applied for the following position: Assistant Janitor
Prerequisites: Ability to distinguish and utilize the following vocabulary when needed: yes/no. As well as the ability to shake head left to right. Shaking head up and down occasionally desired.
1st Grade Literacy is desired but unnecessary.
I did it! I made the big time! I'm so lowly humble and hence, so fucking highminded. YEAH!! I cleaned somebody's piss and ejaculate off three toilets and picked up shit smeared toilet paper with my bare hands for $3.00 every two hours, because I'm righteous in my lofty poverty...

And I Said I Didn't Like the Way He Got Things Done... The Blues They Send to Meet Me, Might Defeat Me...


I started off here at Columbia University a little over 10 years ago prior to the tech boom and the mega surplus of the Clinton Era... These days, post faggot terrorism and sloppy wars, I find myself helplessly fucked over and in predatory debt worse than fucking Argentina, with less net worth than some felony hick without a GED... I could see my freshman year dorm window in John Jay Hall on the left of Butler Library... funny thing is, I was only 'mildly' filled with youthful idealism back then, and yet I still didn't properly prepare myself for the raw shit and fallout of irrational exuberance... what am I writing about... I just had sushi by myself as mom is not home yet... just like the old days... and now... the end is near... and so I face... the final curtain... tomorrow, if I rise, I will slam the market with at least 10,000 shares of (NT) per click lifting ARCA even though it's a rip off to lift ARCA, working ISLD even though it's a rip off to work order on ISLD, and work both sides on Chicago Exchange and literally book a flight to the pit in Illinois(the flight's on skyrocket APR credit of course) if the NT specialist screws with my orders, and beat the piss out of him with fists and elbows and kneecaps to the groin... I drank hot sake with red face... it's wonderfully pleasant temperature all week, and I love to walk random streets, stalking for the sake of stalking... tapping on windows of restaurants both fancy and homely like a hoboe bum... grinning with my toothless partial denture... saying, yeah, I fucked up big in the last decade... please write me off as bad debt. Posted by Hello

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

We Got To Move These Refrigerators...


So over easter weekend, they took away Oster's Fun Sculptures that lined Broadway... Mad Mom was one our favorites, Hay liked to mimic her pose... 2.4 million Crude Oil build up in supply dampened the front month, hopefully ushering a combination of respectable inflation and renewal of dollar strength... so we supposedly restored all the jobs we lost since 2001 keeping in mind that a person temporarily donning a smock, stocking GloWorms and Elmo dolls, making $5.25 in the toy section of Walmart counts as much in the headcount as---a newly intrusive thought in Lockheed's frontal lobe approaching midnight, this bag lady with a ditch in her forehead, do you remember... when we met... that's the day I knew you were my pet... who stands outside of the old Cocoa Exchange building, known as the Quarter lady of Wall Street, who asked for a quarter for 'food' and if you offer her an orange or apple, she says,'I don't want that'... The risk/reward of being a beggar outside of the New York Stock Exchange is that you'll either score big with a trader who's captured some momentous daily trends, or you'll get scowls and hellfire from piss angry traders who got run over and exchange their specialist jackets for a blue smock and our off to the nearest Walmart to stock microwave ovens. I love it when beggars ask me for change, and I say 'sorry', and they get all uppety damning me with unwarranted curses, and the fact is, I seriously don't have change to spare, I'm in debt up to my eyeballs, my assets are on sale, fuck, somedays I make negative income, seriously you fucking obnoxious disenfranchised scumfuck, I don't have a fucking penny to my name, in fact, I have negative pennies you sick ballslap, next time you accost me with grubfuck I'll slap you in the eye with limpdick and treat you with ejaculate--I will kill you with one deft straight right to your fucking toothless grinning trash face, and the impact of your malnourished skull onto the pavement will radiate your brain into a hematoma and that very impact will be what will kill you coup de countre coup. Put you out of your homeless misery wearing my Sunday Best.

Posted by Hello

And Not the Words of a Man Who Kneels...


So I squeezed out a few measley runt cents out of Gaytel, otherwise known as Nortel Networks(NT), of course you got to trade large size to make anything in a piece of behemoth shit that has a daily range of about 7 cents, yet if you have to trade a stock like NT using an ECN like ARCA, you never get filled until all of NYSE trades out, and by that time, you get lifted and it goes through your colonized ass or you get piecemealed 100 shares at a time and charged for each execution. Aside from the daily grind, the blinding light in this photo is simply that, a blinding light... So I visited my brother on 1st Ave around Union Square and the assortment of relatively low priced restaurants stirred magic in me as one walks down 1st or 2nd and takes a turn west towards Chelsea and Soho... After watching a friend's rock band play called 'Dukie' in the Bitter End, with the lead singer who looked like Bob Marley but sounded like the semi-popular 90's band 'Live', I walked down Bleeker with slightly Gentleman Jack Whiskey breathe, reminiscences of close death and needles injecting black ink under my epidermis in a blitz of compulsive social self-ablation.Posted by Hello

Everybody Plays the Fool...


So Mum has the digital camera for the week, so I've been posting some older photos from yesteryear pre-terrorist days... This is the Manhattan that the world knows, Scum Square, where you can get fake cocaine that's made with bisquick and makes your nasal passages swell up until you look like a donkey. Posted by Hello

What Were You Born Yesterday?

So this office is filled with neophytes who know very little and simply haven't been around the block. They claim they have developed 'systems' for trading, but come to find out it's something so goddamn basic like convergence/divergence... I expected something much more... It's like going to the Yankees and saying, 'Let me show you this new pitch, it's called a 'curveball', I discovered it and invented it myself.' Or going to a dentist saying, 'There's this thing I use, it's called 'flouride.' Sheesh...

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Meat Blocks...


...Some meat along Broadway and 74th... Posted by Hello

Simple Routines...


I missed the sunset over the Hudson today... We like to take nighttime walks when it's warm and I guess this year, instead of spending most of time walking up the Avenues, we'll be meandering along cross streets more, perhaps more towards West End Ave, because I like to look at front doors. I will take a nightly walk before bed... Posted by Hello